I started a post yesterday about how my black cloud was once again creeping in. Since mid-July, I’ve had this “thing” weighing on me. Since mid-July, I’ve tried to remain positive. Twice now, panic has come – stepping in and taking away my sunshine.

Funny thing has happened each time, though. It seems that when I feel like I’m close to reaching the bottom, good things start happening. Good things that make me question whether or not this black cloud “thing” really is that dark.

In the grand scheme of things, it could be. It may be. Or maybe it won’t be. Right now, it should not be such a dark “thing.” Because right now, things are okay.

I got a few reminders yesterday that I must take each day at a time and not think about the future. And I got it, at least for now.

I enjoyed a beautiful moment with my daughter this morning. I climbed in bed next to her to wake her up, and as I rubbed her back, a few lines from the 10,000 Maniacs song More Than This popped into my head. As I repeated to myself over and over, “More than this, you know there is nothing more than this,” I thought of just how beautiful this life is. No, there is nothing more than this. It’s the simple things in life that are most important; everything else will fall into place, even if I don’t happen to know just what that “place” is just yet.

As far as Mamavation … ladies, I need to get back on track. Whew, do I ever need to get myself together. One thing I have kept up with is the #100DayBurpeeChallenge … I would not want to catch up on what I’ve missed! 😉

More to come later – I have a few other posts planned, I just need to find the time and motivation to get them posted.


4 responses to “regrouping.

  1. Hi! I’m new to Mamavation but your post has really struck a cord with me. One day at a time…..that is perfect advice! Good luck to you!!


  2. Yes – enjoy the moment now – for this IS the good stuff – this IS what life is about – it’s all about perspective. Now turn your frown upside down 🙂

    Have a great week!

  3. Oh Anxiety! Not sure what is going on in your life but I hope that it is something that you can overcome. I understand having to force myself to enjoy today and not worry about the future. The wonderful people that do that automatically amaze me!

    Good Luck on getting back on track and the fact that you are keeping up with burpees is awesome! I keep stopping at 3, uggghhhh!

  4. One day at a time is a personal thing I’ve slowly started to work towards as well. It’s hard, but definitely helps!
    Kudos to keeping up with the burpee challenge- tough stuff there! Good luck with getting back into the mamavation swing!

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