Monthly Archives: August 2011

regrouping.

I started a post yesterday about how my black cloud was once again creeping in. Since mid-July, I’ve had this “thing” weighing on me. Since mid-July, I’ve tried to remain positive. Twice now, panic has come – stepping in and taking away my sunshine.

Funny thing has happened each time, though. It seems that when I feel like I’m close to reaching the bottom, good things start happening. Good things that make me question whether or not this black cloud “thing” really is that dark.

In the grand scheme of things, it could be. It may be. Or maybe it won’t be. Right now, it should not be such a dark “thing.” Because right now, things are okay.

I got a few reminders yesterday that I must take each day at a time and not think about the future. And I got it, at least for now.

I enjoyed a beautiful moment with my daughter this morning. I climbed in bed next to her to wake her up, and as I rubbed her back, a few lines from the 10,000 Maniacs song More Than This popped into my head. As I repeated to myself over and over, “More than this, you know there is nothing more than this,” I thought of just how beautiful this life is. No, there is nothing more than this. It’s the simple things in life that are most important; everything else will fall into place, even if I don’t happen to know just what that “place” is just yet.

As far as Mamavation … ladies, I need to get back on track. Whew, do I ever need to get myself together. One thing I have kept up with is the #100DayBurpeeChallenge … I would not want to catch up on what I’ve missed! 😉

More to come later – I have a few other posts planned, I just need to find the time and motivation to get them posted.

mamavation: just here.

I just lost my entire Mamavation post. And it wasn’t exactly a fun one, so now I’m even more upset. Argh.

What I was sharing is that it hasn’t been a great week, but it also hasn’t been a bad week, either. Always good! I’ve got a bit of a stress in my life right now, and while I’ve been pretty good at staying positive about it up until now, it’s starting to chip away at my sunshine as of late. It’s okay. It will be okay. I just don’t feel as sunshiny this week as I usually do.

While there’s really no scale victory for me this week, the fact that I’m not doing some out of control stress eating surely is a non-scale victory, so I’ll take it. One day at a time.

Hope you Mamavation Sistas have a great week. I’ll be back to bubbly soon – I just need to figure this thing out. All I need is time. Just a little time.

no pee-pee.

I won’t forget the look in her eyes last night as she waved her hand in the air and repeated after me, “No pee-pee!” She was focused and understood what I was telling her.

You see, it was my fault she was put in that predicament in the first place. We had gone to the park and I had no diapers in the car. She had, well, done her business just as we were leaving the playground and these days she just plain refuses to sit down with that in her diaper. I can’t say I much blame her.

I changed her, then put her in her carseat, sans diaper, with a blanket underneath – just in case.

She made it home dry and I breathed a sigh of relief. “No pee-pee.” Indeed, she had done it. She walked into the house, sat on her potty, and proceeded to then go potty. We celebrated – she had not only listened and done what we had asked of her, but we knew she truly had learned something new. Something hugely new and incredibly exciting.

She made it. And I was so proud of her. We were all so proud of her last night – herself included!

We’ve tried potty training twice before – once just before she turned 2, and once shortly after (While vacationing at MeMa’s!). She’d shown some signs of being ready, but after giving it a go, we realized she just wasn’t quite there. No worries; we just continue to talk about it and do things to prepare.

After last night, I think she may just be ready after all. I think we may just go on a fabulously fun shopping spree this weekend; one that will include big girl pants, great beverages and super rewards.

I’m ready, and I’m pretty sure she is, too.

things I’m loving right now.

I love finding and falling in love with amazing products. What’s even better, though, is sharing those amazingproducts with others. Below are 5 of my favorite things right now. As a disclaimer, I was not asked to review these products, nor am I receiving anything in exchange for this post. I just genuinely love these things and wanted to share them with you. Now, on to the 5 things!

Nuts About Granola
This granola is out of this world good! Worth a try if you love granola, for sure. My favorite flavor? It’s a tough decision, but I’d have to go with College Staple. Or maybe the fabulous Warrior Crunch, because honestly, who doesn’t like cherries and chocolate?! (Even better, the purchase of Warrior Crunch helps to raise money for cancer research!) And if you’re in central PA, you don’t have any excuse but to try this granola – they’re at markets in both York and Lancaster and at many shops throughout central PA. So what are you waiting for? Try it now!

CurlyQ Cuties
Seriously, these custom-made monsters are adorable! I’ve done monsters with the numbers 1 through 5 and will give them to my daughter each year on her birthday. I also had the pleasure of giving one to my niece who turned 1 this year, too! Do you have a child who is losing teeth? Check out the Design Your Own Fairy Tooth – they’re adorable!

our local farmer’s market
Okay, so this isn’t technically a thing, but it’s worth mentioning anyway. Do you visit your local farmer’s market in the summer? I do, and I love it! If you can, you really should get out there. Not only can you support local farms and businesses, but you can bring home plenty of nutritious produce, meat, and goodies, too!

Toddy Coffee Maker
Our summer obsession is iced coffee. Instead of making hot coffee and chilling, however, I prefer to use coffee concentrate, made with this cold brew system. It makes the most amazing iced coffee! Even better, it has less acid than traditional coffee, making our tummies happy!

My Fitness Pal
I love, love, love this free tool. My Fitness Pal makes it incredibly easy to keep track of your food and water intake, exercise, measurements, and more! Even better, you can use it online and on your phone. The iPhone app is just as easy to use as the website, too!

What products/services are you loving right now?

shoes?

Some days as a parent just rock. Even better, some days as a parent of a 2 year old are out of this world.

We were on the front porch last night catching the tail end of the rain shower that had passed through. I sat down and showed Lily the ‘boo-boo’ on my knee (I fell while walking. Yeah, don’t ask.). She walked over, touched my leg, said ‘Aww, MaMum boo-boo!,’ and then proceeded to kiss my boo-boo.

My heart melted right then and there. Can I bottle this girl up and save her at 2 years old forever? Seriously. I can’t get enough of this stuff.

IMG_8478e1 Fast forward 15 minutes or so. My husband and I are now sitting in the hammock swing, still on the front porch. Lily walks by and notices a spider web in the corner of the window. In the web are two dead bugs – one a small white moth and the other a small dark brown bug. No spider. She points to the brown bug and says ‘Shoe?’ Oh. My. Gosh. It’s true – that bug really did look like a shoe – he was upside down, and his legs do sort of look like laces. I love the innocence.

So really, can’t we just keep her this way forever?

mamavation monday: zen.

wt_2011_15aug I feel like I should be bummed today as I look at my progress. I’m just hovering – seeing lots of ups and downs, with little progress over the past couple of weeks. I feel like I should be fretting.

But I’m not.

Over the past few days, I’ve really noticed how motivated I am by, well, my current motivations. I’ve been thinking about the past. I’ve been thinking about the present. And I think I’ve discovered something about myself that perhaps I didn’t recognize before.

When I’m into something, I’m really into it.

So that can be good and bad. When I’m into being lazy – not working out, making poor food choices, eating out – I’m really good at it. But the opposite is true, too, and that’s where I am right now. I’m making great choices, becoming addicted to running, and eating out less and less.

So what do I need to do? By golly, stick. with. it. Because when I get off the wagon, I’m toast.

Like the week before last. Remember in my last Mamavation Monday I mentioned that it wasn’t a good week? Believe me when I say that it wasn’t a good week. And it wasn’t just here and there. No, there was little exercise, bad food, and indulgences that should be saved for every now and then. And honestly, I’m amazed I was able to gain control again so quickly. I know it was through the support of the Mamavation Sistas that I was able to get back into things. It’s true. A huge hug and thank you to each and every one of you – whether we communicated directly or not, the #mamavation chatter and your progress and honesty kept me going.

All that to say that the number on the scale is not my motivation right now, and it’s such a beautiful feeling. In fact, while I’m recording my weight and measurements nearly religiously, I don’t really care about any of them. I’m at a place where I know I’m doing the right thing, and that’s all I really need. I know the feeling won’t last forever, but this place where I am now is so beautiful. I know change will come.

This isn’t going to be a short a journey, and frankly, it shouldn’t be. As it stands now, I’ve got about 20 pounds to go to even reach the top of my healthy BMI range. And that’s just one small piece of it all.

So right now I’ll enjoy this. I’ll smile when my 2 year old daughter wants to snack on sugar snap peas just like ‘MaMum.’ I’ll push myself even harder on my runs and make them a beautiful habit. And I’ll continue to make progress toward bringing only healthy foods into our house. All of those things can be forever things, and bring us one step closer to a beautifully healthy family. That, and not a simple measurement, is what it’s all about.

back to mamavation reality.

I’m just going to tell it like it is – this past week was not a good Mamavation week for me. I failed to workout consistently. I ate things I shouldn’t have. And while I didn’t gain as much as I think I should have, I did see that number inch up a bit. I just let things get in the way.

I’m back today, and ready to step back up to the challenge. What happened is done and over with – I can’t change it. In reality, a week is just a week. It wasn’t a month, a year, or a decade. It’s damage I can undo.

Discouraged by a few bad days? Nope. It’s time to move on!!!