Monthly Archives: June 2011

365 project (180) … ‘mama, gasses?’

This girl … she’s a goof, and she loves her glasses. Er, ‘gasses.’

'Mama, gasses?'


i’ll just keep swimming.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. 90% of the time, this dual-working family thing we’re doing works out just fine. Sure, I’d love more time with our Peanut, but to know that the time we spend together is nothing short of perfect satisfies me just fine, thank you very much.

It’s that 10% that’s the killer, the 10% of the time that is just plain stressful and exhausting. That’s the kind of week we’ve been having. Lily was dealing with some sort of virus from Saturday through Monday. Pitiful and heartbreaking in and of itself. After an extra day of rest on Tuesday, we thought she’d be perfectly fine today.

Until it all came to a screeching hault.

We got her up, dressed, and out the door this morning. But when the phone rang at 11:16 and the caller ID indicated that it was our day care provider, I knew things weren’t good. Lily had started developing red spots all over her midsection.

My poor baby ... To make a long story short and get to the point, I ended up taking her to urgent care, and we were sent to the lab for blood work from there. Could be from the high fever she had from Saturday through Monday, though the spots don’t look quite like they would if they were from her fever. Could be the dreaded chickenpox. The lab work was to try to determine just what type of virus we’re dealing with here.

Our time at the lab (And leading up to it for me – I was a nervous, anxious wreck!) was less than pretty, and my heart broke a hundred times over as the technician did what she had to do to draw 2 vials of blood from her tiny little arm.

After a truly heartbreaking and exhausting day for both of us, the difficulty of this work/life balance is clear. I’m extremely lucky to work for a family-oriented organization. I’m thankful that I was able to put my family first today. It’s the guilt and the catching up that really stinks.

The next few days will be tricky as we find a balance between work and time at home with our little one. It’s times like this that I realize just how difficult it is to live away from family and friends. To have so little support and so few people to call upon.

We’ll make it. Lily will be just fine. The sense of discouragement I’m feeling will pass, and we’ll all get through. But I’ll tell ya, this is one rough week … for all of us, and for so many reasons far beyond what’s shared here.

I know we’ll get back to that 90%. Eventually.


I was laying next to my daughter last night as she was falling asleep in her bed, and I got to thinking – wondering how many other parents out there were doing exactly what I was doing at that very moment.

In our house, bedtime has evolved. For the first several months, we held Lily until she fell asleep, then we carried her to her crib. Once she no longer wanted to be held (Little Miss Independent is what we’re working with now!), one of us would take her to bed and lay next to her crib until she fell asleep. She lucked out here – she’d often stick her feet out of her crib looking for a foot rub, and of course she always got it! Now that she’s in a big girl bed, one of us takes her up and lays in bed with her until she falls asleep. (Okay, and sometimes we end up there all night because we fall asleep, too!)

I know there’s a great debate about your children falling asleep alone vs. with a parent. Perhaps things will be different later on down the road when Lily has a sibling, but this works just perfectly for us right now. We’re a dual-working family, so every minute with our daughter is precious. I enjoy the quiet time we have together, and wouldn’t want it any other way.

What does bedtime look like in your house?

365 project (173) … beauty?

Eek. That’s all I have to say about that!

Right now ...

365 project (172) … sharing the view.

My heart melts – she turned her bear around so he could see the tractor we were following. I love being a ‘mama!’

Melt my heart; turned her bear around so he could see tractor we are following.

celebrate the little things.

One step forward, right? One at a time.

That’s how we’re gonna do this thing, and it started first thing this morning.

I was home today with a sick babe. Typically, a day at home with lots of down time would spell disaster. Not today.

Today, I’m celebrating control. I’m celebrating one small step on a long, long road to what will forever be a moving target. I was in amazing control. I ate exactly what I wanted, and it’s oh so nice!

This I can continue. This is Mamavation.

feelin’ huge.

I’m feeling huge today, and not in a bad way. It’s that ‘top of cloud nine’ feeling. I’ve taken control of me. I’d had a few things in the back of my mind for quite a while that needed to be taken care of. Nothing huge, but the potential negative impact of both of them were weighing heavy on my mind.

My daughter turned 2 last month, and with that comes a 2-year appointment with her pediatrician. As I scheduled her appointment, I started feeling guilty. Here I am, making the right choice to keep up with her necessary appointments, and I’m not doing the same for myself. I knew I needed to change.

I’d put off a tetanus shot for like forever – last time I got it, I had a horrible time and ended up nearly passing out several times in the days that followed. I didn’t want to do it again, and had refused when asked by my doctor over the past few years. Yeah, wimp.

Secondly, back in early 2008, I had my cholesterol tested. While my good cholesterol was good, my bad cholesterol was bad. Not too long after, I got pregnant, so I decided to ignore the recommendation to follow up and have my cholesterol checked again. Uh huh, say it again. Wimp. (Also stupid. I know.)

In the past few days, I’ve done both things, and I feel fabulous about it! The 3-4 days after the tetanus shot were truly awful, but I’m still glad I got it. And my cholesterol? I learned last night that all levels are GOOD!!! I have no idea how it happened, but I can now rest my mind. I am so excited!

I also pledged and was accepted as a Mamavation Sista earlier this week! It’s time for change – I need to workout more and make smarter eating choices. I’m still learning and getting to know people, but it’s been great fun so far!

So, have you put off similar things lately? And what have you done for you that not only changes how healthy you are, but has an impact on your family, as well?

Make that change – you’ll be so glad you did!